4.1.09 - 213/365

i have been trying to refocus
on my self and my process;
i started this project partially because
i thought it would facilitate this
and
to some extent it has
but right now
it doesn't seem to be working

between this project and my other on-line activities
i am spending WAY too much time at the keyboard

i will continue here,
but for the moment,
in a somewhat abbreviated fashion
april's self portraits will all be cell phone snaps
uploaded via smg
i will not be making the flickr side public until the end of the month
and i will not be posting an image in between each self portrait
by simplifying the project in this way
i will not be focusing
(no pun intended)
on creating individual portraits that are particularly interesting,
hopefully as a group they will be
but i don't want the day to day pressure
of presenting them publicly
i also believe
that what i need in order to find myself right now
is a greater sense of quiet
because the voice i am listening for
is so, so soft

i need to plant
i need to paint
and
i need to spend time alone,
i also need to make time for my garden
i know i need that to ground myself
(literally & figuratively)

i will continue posting daily to my fotolas,
(they are the thumbnail links at the top of this page)

i probably will continue posting to myownlittlepiece of heaven
since i have a project there that i am hoping will encourage me to update my painting site

i will of course continue with t_l_v & museu
since these are projects deeply connected to my process

facebook, tweating, etc are also on hold for the moment
since "social" is not something i am looking for right now.