9.22.08 - 22/365

top:me - 12:50 am
bottom: my mother - 9:40 pm

i am not sure anyone else would see this
but i do
so clearly

when i was growing up
people thought we were sisters
everyone has always thought
that we look alike
but we really don't...

she is fair
with blue eyes
her eyes are much larger and wider set
her mouth is bigger
her lips fuller
her cheekbones higher
our noses are different

but our gestures
our mannerisms
are so much alike
that in person
i guess we really do resemble each other

except in photos,
i have always recognized her
in pictures of me

however,
this wasn't at all what i was going to write about today
originally i was only going to post the top picture
and i was going to say that
i'm posting another picture from after midnight
of the day before
really last night
but actually today
but
not
but
what does it matter
i am wearing the same thing
and doing the same thing
and it's all pretty much the same

it was a nice day
but i didn't even go outside
not even on the deck
not even into my garden

i just flitted from one task to another
and back again
almost
at every moment
about to lose my train of thought
but completely unable
to stay with
any one thing
for too long
from
websites
to
community
to
bills
to
the studio
to
phone calls
to
discarding
to
organizing

i even wrote condolence notes to both my aunt & my cousin

my uncle died months and months ago