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Sunday, December 7, 2008

12.7.08 - 98/365

brooklyn masonic temple ladies roomi'm always a sucker for a fabulous ladies lounge
and i haven't seen one like this in ages
and i thought that was what this post was going to be about
the room itself
but it's not
it's about skew
or more precisely; deskew

for a while now i have been relentlessly deskewing my images
getting rid of barrel distortion
(imperative when posting shots of paintings/drawings)
or straightening lines
and so i blithely went ahead
and did this to the picture above
in order to post it today

brooklyn masonic temple ladies roombut when i looked at it later,
i felt i had lost something intangible but essential
and so posted it as originally shot.

it was the same with my 2nd choice:
and while with the image above
i had both deskewed and adjusted the hemline of my coat,
with this one

brooklyn masonic temple ladies roomin addition to straightening lines
i replaced my head!
lol
(i don't usually do things like that)
but ultimately,
again,
i do like the original better

brooklyn masonic temple ladies room
and finally
another view of the room:

brooklyn masonic temple ladies roommost definately (and necessarily) deskewed

Saturday, December 6, 2008

12.6.08 - 97/365

in the mirrorleaving for the memorial service of the mother of one of my nursery school friends
susie and i were in school together from almost 4 till almost 18
we haven't seen each other much as adults
(she lives in the boston area)
but we went to each other's weddings
and we have stayed in touch.

sonia, her mother, was a remarkable woman;
a social worker, a mentor, an author, an administrator,
a women processing extraordinary generosity, wit, directness and concern.
and she was the first adult to treat me like a person not a child
at a very young age
and this had great meaning to me.

so i left my very new home in brooklyn,
to go back into the upper eastside world of my childhood
to meet up with my mother
to see people i hadn't seen in a very long time

the streets of my childhood have changed
they have become even more opulent
more shiny, more luxe, more monied
and coming from brooklyn
these changes were magnified

but on reaching my destination
i was returned to the world of my childhood
except as an adult
and it was a strange space to be in
seeing my mother, childhood friends, their mothers and their children,
remembering and catching up.
bouncing back and forth between
who i was then and who i am today
and i suppose confronting
that the main difference
is only age

and then i left
and went to visit another friend
and her young daughter
i went crosstown and downtown
to another totally changed area of the city
where i had spent much of my young adult life

going back home on the subway
when usually i am on my bike
and concentrating on the physical challenges of getting home
but it was late & snowing
and so i had the time & space to reflect,
to see my worlds start merging
and i felt a little overwhelmed
it wasn't the geographical distance traveled
it was the chronological



it was a very complicated day

Friday, December 5, 2008

12.5.08 - 96/365

murakami & methe impetus for this picture came out of the virtual discussion below that occurred on another 365day flickr
since i have more to say on the matter
and since i don't want to rant in someone else's space
i decided to address it here
and (no pun intended)
dress for it here
(see below)

original exchange:
he:
Rant # whatever: What is the deal with all of these creepy guys on Flickr? I go to so many girls' Flickrs and see some of the grossest, most obscene comments ever. You wouldn't talk to these ladies like this in real life so why on Earth do it here? It's repulsive, it's disgusting, these guys need to be taken out behind the shed and put out of their misery. BUT you girls certainly don't help by encouraging these losers. If you stop posting half-naked pictures of yourselves then these types of people would go away. It's that easy. Now I know you feel empowered by showing off your photoshop-enhanced body on Flickr but is it really worth it? There's a fine line between artful nudes and pornography and most of you are straddling it. Pun intended. Thank you and good night.

me:
f*** art
this project is about a very public form of self reflection
that we all
(for one reason or another)
have chosen to partake in
no one is demanding the "art" label for any other genre of sp
so why for the ones involving nudity???

as far as the comments go
A
rude comments are rude comments, saying they are deserved on a crappy nude photo but not on a crappy clothed photo is like telling the rape victim "well, you must have been asking for it"
and
B
if the protestations by these photographers about rude comments on their photostream bother you so much, then just stop clicking on those images, after all, i am sure you can tell a t&a shot from its thumbnail

basically i believe that however someone approaches this project is valid and courageous


he:
what in the hell are you even talking about? i think you took my rant and twisted and turned it into something completely different. comparing anything on here to rape is ignorant.

he:
and i'm not done. you show me a picture of a girl wearing a sweater, ear muffs, a parka, and a scarf on and see how many perverted comments she gets. take the clothes away and see how it changes. i think that rude comments suck no matter what the context is HOWEVERRRR i believe that there are moments, people, uploads that are seemingly "asking for it" flickr is a car wreck. i couldn't look away even if i wanted to. not that i look at car wrecks. i'm sure you'd like to twist that phrase around to make it sound like i like car wrecks. i'm not gonna fall for it again, sister!

how i really feel
the rape thing: rape in the physical world is abuse of a sexual nature, in the virtual world, gross obscene comments are abuse of a sexual nature, so while not 100% analogous, it's a reasonable metaphor to make.
anyway it's EXACTLY that "asking for it" attitude that i am objecting to and which i am surprised to encounter in this context, i find it to be a very misogynistic way of thinking. and i will say that i was really amazed at the number of women that came out in support of this viewpoint, back in the day that never would have happened.

flickr is a car wreck: not exactly sure about this metaphor, flickr is not something you happen upon, it is something you willingly look at, for what ever reason. some people click on cuddly cats, some on a beautiful balance of light and design, others on t&a, it's pretty simple and pretty easy not to look at things that don't interest you and very easy not to read other people's comments. i am not quite sure what the problem is here that a little self control wouldn't remedy.

about the suggested attire
I am wearing earmuffs but the only ones i have are 180s which make them hard to see hidden in my gorgeous locks, rest assured, they are a color coordinated green .
ok, not my locks - it's a wig; the only thing i am wearing that wasn't requested, but i was having a bad hair day and what with trying to be tasteful and all, it was just too much to get my hair looking even somewhat attractive.
i did substitute a vest for a parka since the color was better and i wanted to give my sweater a little more light
(if you know me at all, you know color always rulz)
oh, and the pillow... that's so there's no mistaking that this is Art
now, attire aside (surprisingly no suggestions for the bottom half) had i chosen to spread my legs, i am sure rude comments would abound so i hardly think clothing or lack there of is germaine.
the point is, if one express's themself by posing suggestively but lacks the where-with-all for meeting some yet to be defined standard of "artful" should they be disrespected for protesting the lewd comments they attract?

art & good taste: as my very wise brother in-law; the multi-talented flawless sabrina says: "good taste is what tastes good"
hey, i'm an artist, i have struggled with the "what is/what isn't" art question for years but my views are simply my views and i guess, given that what i post can be deeply personal, i feel it is important to respect what other people post.
i think everyone here is trying to show the world what is important to them through the visual and it's ALL valid, the stupid kittens (i make people suffer through mine), the pretty sunsets, the conceptual explorations and yes, the crude and the lewd. honestly, i have learned from all of it.

and i think this standard of "tasteful nudity" is a bit of a farce,
cleavage: yes | nipples: no
covered bush: yes | spread legs: no
curve of the ass: yes | hairy balls: no
give me a break, it's just a matter of personal limitations, but there are many, many people posting very seductive images in varying degrees of undress and who's to say what's "artistic" and what's not,
i mean really, seen any terry richardson lately?
as the old joke goes: "madame, we've already established what you are, now we are just haggling about the price"

curious about this person, i went to their profile, which led to their myspace:
"wishes someone would go ahead and knock Miley Cyrus up so we can get her out of the way and move onto the next 13 year old whorish child actress."
i rest my case

almost forgot, let's see what happens when you take the clothes away

murakami & meha ha made you look
:D
as anyone who has followed my work closely over the years knows
i have no problem with displaying any body part
i did take those pictures
and they are actually rather sweet
but proving this particular point
isn't a compelling enough reason for me to post one

Thursday, December 4, 2008

12.4.08 - 95/365

in the studioi am making head way
you can see the floor!!!

if not this,
then these
are what i would have posted today:

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

12.3.08 - 94/365

in the bedi have never been a "bed" person.
honestly,
all my life i have had this fear of being lazy
so "bed" was the enemy
as long as i was up
i figured i was "doing" something
or
at least on my way to "doing" something
but lately i have been so tired
that i really appreciate a chance to lie down
and on my studio days
i love having the laptop
so i can start the day slowly
make the posts i was too tired to finish the night before
and see what my friends are doing
it's really the most luxurious part of the day

happily
despite the cough & the sore throat
the day continued well and i made some progress in the studio
one of the things i unpacked
were the core samples
i mimicked the way i had them in the loft


(i have another picture of them somewhere, one from a similar angle
but for now, this will have to do)

but i am not sure they'll stay here
i rather liked the openness of the window without them.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

12.2.08 - 93/365

on the streettruth be told...
i was really going for the legs
of the people
sitting at this counter
in the window
of yet another
dreaded starbucks

and around the corner:
2.99

12.1.08 - 92/365

in the bathroom
feeling a bit better after a shower

it's december and i'm taking it a bit more free form this month

holidays can be somewhat stressful for me
(for everyone)
and so i am taking a little vacation from so strictly structuring this project
(september incorporated using self portraits i had drawn,
november entailed posting a combination of photobooth self portraits
and on flickr, a painting i had made each day)

december was going to have no guidelines at all,
but i heard the studio reminding me
that a large impetus for this project
was to jump start my process there,
so
i will continue, on flickr
to post something studio related everyday

today's post, is from the 12 images i took today to create a calendar
using 12 of the random thoughts paintings that i actually have completed since leaving the loft

hopefully this will all help keep me from feeling so upside down:

upside down