taking the image before this
not feeling too well...
infact feeling somewhat like this...
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
11.28.08 - 89/365
Thursday, November 27, 2008
11.27.08 - 88/365
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
11.25.08 - 86/365
it's kind of all about the turkey for the time being
expect some photos of innards somewhere around these parts
Monday, November 24, 2008
11.24.08 - 83/365
Sunday, November 23, 2008
11.23.08 - 84/365
i am getting things ready for thanksgiving
getting the guest room ready for my mom to come
even though she hasn't seen the house finished
things are going to be VERY familiar for her;
she'll be sleeping in the bed and using the dresser from the house she just moved out of
i have the figure below
that she made maybe 45 years ago
so i put it on the mantle piece
and something about it struck me as being so similar
to some of the self portraits i've taken
(but not posted)
lately
i think my mother formed a figure in that position
because it defined "something" about her
and i think that "something"
is inherent in my body as well
and it's interesting to me
that these things from the past inform our present
in very subtle ways
it's comforting to me
when they reveal themselves
and i believe this has something to do with why i am such a pack rat
i mean,
she didn't keep that clay figure
i did
Saturday, November 22, 2008
11.22.08 - 83/365
every once in a while i take a picture of myself
and the person i see in it
is my mother
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
11.20.08 - 81/365
she (we?) are just starting to get to normal
smudge has been off her rocker since the day all the boxes came
not only was she unceremoniously shoved into the bathroom
for an unduly long period of time
(with oski, not sure that's a plus)
but boxes only mean one thing to her:
moving/disorientation
not settling in/comfort
and she has been anything but settled
so much so that
she hasn't even been sitting in my lap when i paint
(kind of a blessing because she makes it rather difficult
what with her tail swishing back & forth
like an unpredictable brush
and besides
she makes my legs fall asleep)
anyway
it took her a long time to resume position today
out takes
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
11.19.08 - 80/365
as boring as it might be
in the last few days
i have finally settled into what i had originally thought
i would be doing this month,
which,
for lack of a better word
is taking mug shots
what i guess i really mean
is following a more conceptual approach:
photo booth, white wall in studio, shoot
instead of an emotive or interpretive one
(now that i've said that
i'll probably stand on my head tomorrow)
to get that white wall back required a little shifting around:
I needed to switch the orientation of where i paint
back to where it was before i brought everything out from storage
so instead of looking at this:
i see this:
not that big a difference you might think
except that this:
is to my left
instead of being behind my back
big change on the inside
but you'd never know it from comparing the image above
(after the shift)
to the one below
(before)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
11.18.08 - 79/365
morning has never been my moment...
be careful what you wish for...
so i accomplished what i set out to do yesterday
and the day before
and the day before that;
i went straight into the studio in the morning
and started working
consequently,
i missed a very important appointment
and i was extremely late for work
and it was the first cold day
and i didn't feel strong enough to ride my bike
so i need to take the dreaded subway
and the only up side to that
is that i can take pictures on the way
(and make myself even later)
Monday, November 17, 2008
11.17.08 - 78/365
i had to start to today again at 7 pm
it wasn't going so well . . .
so i stopped painting
took a hot shower
(used a lot of product )
and put on something comfy
yet a bit glamorous
(that belonged to my mom a really long time ago)
then picked up where i left off
this was part of why i was upset
no matter how strong my intentions
to do my watercolors and self portrait
during the light of day
it always ends up being dark
by the time i sit down to work
i hate this
not being able to put what is important to me first
and it makes me angry with myself
but i do like the reflection of my screen behind me
Sunday, November 16, 2008
11.16.08 - 77/365
when it comes to porn
i'll take food over cleaning
any day
taken for fgr & porn for women
more food porn
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
11.13.08 - 74/365
putting an interesting spin on "the mess"
(ok, that was totally lame but fgr did save me from another one of these and reminded me how grateful i am not to have vertigo anymore)
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
11.12.08 - 73/365
and i've emptied a dozen more boxes
want to see what's in that drawer?
fragments of discarded paintings from many moons ago
self portrait from another time and place
from when i was printing on canvas in the darkroom, then stretching & painting on it
Monday, November 10, 2008
11.10.08 - 71/365
i guess i am tired
but i do keep finding fun stuff;
the frogs are mostly from a collage i disassembled today
the playboy...
its in braille
i just find that kind of funny...