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Monday, May 11, 2009

5.11.09 - 253/365

in the studiothe simple reality is
that this is excruciating
it has been 4 months of trying
there were moments when i thought i had connected
but there simply have not been enough
i do everything that i know how
i work every day
i try to meditate and practice a tiny bit of yoga every day
i tried giving up a lot of my on-line obligations
i have made space for the garden
i have cut back on my community activities
i am reading for inspiration/enlightenment
i am taking fish oil & st. john's wort
i turn my paintings around
i paint them out
i sit and i look
i simply don't know what else to do
and it frightens me beyond belief

2 comments:

t_l_v said...

keep sitting and looking
and taking st john's herb

:)*

SeLFs said...

No CoMprenDe NaDa
(((YouR WorDs DePreSS mE)==
(BuT theN aGaiN eVerythinG DepreSSeS mE)))